Sometimes I Cry
By: Jason Crabb
I look the partblend in with the rest of the church crowd
I know the routine
I could list all the bible studies in town
watch Christian TV
I know all the preachers...their cliches
been born again, without a doubt I know I'm saved
Chorus
But sometimes I hurt and sometimes I cry
sometimes I can't get it right
no matter how hard I seem to try
sometimes I fall down
stumble over my own disguise
I try to look strong
as the whole world looks on
but sometimes alone I cry
I try to speak faith
never give the devil one inch to get in
I do worship and praise
let everybody know just where that I stand
on the back of my ride is a fish and a cross
for the world to see
I know God is good, all of the time
yes there's no doubt for me
Chorus
But sometimes I hurt and sometimes I cry
sometimes I can't get it right
no matter how hard I seem to try
sometimes I fall down
stumble over my own disguise
I try to look strong
as the whole world looks on
but sometimes alone I cry
Bridge
Sometimes I fall down
stumble over my own disguise
I try to look strong as the whole world looks on
but sometimes alone I cry
Tag
I try to look strong as the whole world looks on
but sometimes alone I cry
Another song that Betty hummed to me in response to my post : Reach Out . So true for most of us. Unless, it is to a friend, our countenance may sometimes be controlled and held true feelings are just kept inside. It is not easy to wear a scowl or frown and all the more sadness while in front of folks in church.
Most young people do this many times, because they keep to themselves so much. Hurting people may open up or clam off. We are not perfect, we are human and we could be exposed to so many forces around us. It is not easy to show real feelings, afraid others would judge us.
I want to laugh at the way Jason Crabb's bridge lines, "Sometimes I fall down, stumble over my own disguise. I try to look strong as the whole world looks on but sometimes alone I cry." Falling over his own disguise..... this should lead one to be real, not to hide feelings and to be transparent. It is bound to surface anyway.
We need to talk it over with someone, specifically to one more mature. When things go wrong, relationships are failing, or in indecision, one should go to someone to talk to, no need to show a happy face when our clouds look gray.
And when none is within our close vicinity, there is always our forever friend.... Jesus!
Thus the Lord used to speak to Moses face to face, just as
a man speaks to his friend. (Ex 33.11)
Oh, for the days when I was in my prime, when God's intimate friendship
blessed my house, (Job 29.4)
As for me, I'd would like to be in Adam's foot path while walking beside God in the Garden, talking to each other. It would be more as a friend rather than the mighty God of creation. Intimate, relaxed and appeasing to my own troubled heart.
A new link to the video/audio of the song:
http://betty-wiseheartedwomen.blogspot.com/2012/06/sometime-i-cry.html
Thank you for the inspiration, Betty. Thank you for song lead.
ReplyDeleteWow...what a song. So real. I never heard it.
ReplyDeleteBut I can totally relate to his tag line. For seven years I was cut off - very few I could ever let my guard down around.
So, my Father heard it all! And He still loves me!
Have a wonderful day today, Lolita!
Lolita-
ReplyDeleteMy dear-you are soaring with your words, expressing this beautiful song shared by Betty, helping us to understand those deepest wounds we hold inside.
Without doubt as my Pain battle continues, it has become so much harder to SMILE-I am honest-its just not there most of the time. Oh yes, I can plaster that FAKE SMILE on fast-but it doesn't stay there long.
This probably sounds a bit strange, but as the years move by, I finally found a comment to give out when people see me dragging my old body into church-they greet me and always ask "Martha-How are you doing?"
My dear husband is standing right there and I can almost feel his shoulders rising up as he knows "oh no, here it comes, she is going to say it again!"
My answer back to their greeting is "I am MEAN as EVER!" I do say it with a smile and my husband just shakes his head. He begged me to find "something different to say" and so I did.
I tested it out a few weeks ago and this is the new saying to being asked How I am doing-a somewhat plastered Smile hits my face and I say in a more gentle voice "Well I am doing FAIR TO MIDDLING!"
Now- I get a blank look. One woman shocked me last week when she said 'Martha-I loved your other saying so much! Just use it again-because we all know, You don't have a MEAN bone in your body!"
It was a major Teaching Lesson by our Lord for this old gal and my husband just BEAMED as this happened..
Sorry for the lengthy response but this one touched me and I wanted to share it with you.
Love and blessings sweet Lolita.
Martha
Lolita, you are such a blessed wise soul!
ReplyDeleteDitto Veronica!!!
ReplyDeleteMartha-
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing to us your encounters with fellow church goers. Deep inside they knew you are not mean.... and they should know too you are hurting to the core. And I know what they see in you is what they get. Sometimes, we don't need words... a nod would be enough.
Thank you, D.
ReplyDeleteI know you have had your seven years of silence. And now you are the most transparent sister in your church and in our circle.
We are learning from you.... voices are being heart across the globe.
And Veronica-I should have gotten wisdom from Betty. How I love her profound-to-the-point comments. Such a wise-hearted-courageous-woman-of God she is.
ReplyDeleteLolita, you can look right through our chests and see our hearts and super powers! Hehehe. You have the power of super vision too, not just super words!
ReplyDeleteSorry Diane, I meant it to read: voices are being heard across the globe. (My fingers sometimes are ahead of my brain, they type on their own minds).
ReplyDeleteAwoooo, V. Such a big thing for me-if that be it, then I owe it most the the Holy Spirit and all of your encouragement.
V-
ReplyDeleteI've seen Claire Claire flying with caped Dad.
I could have a cape too..... wonder Lolita, like wonder woman. He he he... I can fly too, like Claire.