WHEN MAGNITUDE DWELLS IN MY HEART

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In the jungle of the commercial world, one often gets lost .   Staying on schedule, working on priorities demanding attention, skills and time, easily leads us to go home weary.

Chores at home get piled high and it fights the battle against running off to bed.  Sometimes there is  something that pops up which needs to be done with, no matter what.  You strive to be awake and do it wholeheartedly.

Mornings get me foggy and sometimes the mountain climbs to my appointment with my Creator get pushed back with a promise to spend it during the midday break.  Then, you know too well what happens next.  Distraction comes... and house-sits without a lot of pushing ...... on tiptoe. 




If so immersed, she customarily sits for a longer period.  She comes packed with a "suitcase" full of gadgets.  She sends me into chaos.  The more I try to work out on priorities, the more I lag behind.  More chaos and in the mind too.  Peace elopes together with hope.

I think last week was so much like that.  Wandering in the maze of my own making, I strained for the still small voice. " I haven't been hearing you, Lord!"  I tried to call out. 

In the muddle, I know He is there always.  His voice got entangled in the din of busyness, in the loud horns of the busy streets of hidden thoughts, in the argues and complaints of office mates,  with the bullies of the big boss, among the flurry of paper works.  Even the lures of that small picture tube on its stand, takes a lot of time away from the important. 


 I needed to seek my Lord.  I want His help to evict Mrs. Distraction and stab her with the sword of  The word of God.  "Off you scram from my home with your "bag of regrets",  God is for me, nothing can come between me and my God!" 

"I am so sorry, Lord.  I missed you!"

"I want to be where You are."

This week, I went back meekly, with bowed head and repentant heart.  Mindless of my corner, which has now gathered a small hill of wares, needing patient hands and time to stash away.  What's important is I'm here at the altar of my own heart.

I sought Him out amongst the growing weeds of unnecessary things.  They cramped the space for my Spirit.  His call to me got muffled and I barely heard Him.

Slowly, undetected, the weaver of lies and the caster of guilt, crept into my mind with whispers of  dread, frightening thoughts and hopelessness.

"Lord, I am here."   

"Please come and get me!"

I ran straight into the strong arms of my Father, with sobs of sorrows outpouring.

Listening hard while saying my praises, I felt home and secure.

Thank you, my Father, for the knowledge that you are always where you are, unmoved.  And for bidding me back when I went farther away for my comfort. 

Suddenly, I was ushered into an expanse.  Apart from the firm hold, it made me shudder.  The wideness and breadth of the space made my heart ache and my head to spin.  What is this, where am I?  I am being swallowed by it.  It was a black hole kind of, in my imagination.

Then I realized, there was only me in my Father's firm hold.  What is this He is showing me?  It was like I was inside my own gaping heart.  "Yes, my Father, I missed you too!"  

Then I embraced it.  I saw the magnitude of my Creator.  I can never span His measure with my own small mind, my own small outlook, my limited sight.  His ways are so far from mine.  Higher than  Mt. Everest and deeper than the Pacific Ocean.  The expanse of the whole Universe, I could not begin to fathom.  With a word, they came to existence.  I was formed.  He is holding everything in its order and law.  He is holding me.


He will never leave me and He will never forsake.

Yes, you are My God, my awesome God!  Help me not to go about my own way.  Thank you, Lord!  Just a speck in the vastness of the universe, yet you know me and care for me.  You cannot be shaken, You will never change.  Amen in the Name of my Savior and Lord, Jesus Christ.

He is reminding me these:

 Hebrews 13:5-6

Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

So we can confidently say, “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?”

Deuteronomy 31:6 

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”

Hebrews 13:6 

So we can confidently say, “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?”

.... or nothing can ever separate me from the Love of God, nothing, In the love of my Lord, Jesus Christ!  God is for me.

(Rom. 8:31, 8:38-39 paraphrased.)

HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD

The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God 

NOTES:

LINE/WORD/IMAGERIES ADAPTATIONS: (with my gratitude)

~Bag full of regrets~

Fixing a Broken Heart-lyrics, http://www.elyrics.net/read/i/indecent-obsession-lyrics/fixing-a-broken-heart-lyrics.html

   

Count Your Last Blessings, by Sum 41 (Lyrics here:http://www.kovideo.net/count-your-last-blessings-lyrics-sum-41-706266.html) or see below at the comments section

~Suitcase~

When a Holiday Leaves you Hollow, Shelly Miller @  Redemption's Beauty, http://redemptionsbeauty.wordpress.com/2012/05/29/when-a-holiday-leaves-you-hollow/

Other phrasings that I may have inadvertently used in this post, which anyone recognizes as his/her own, pardon, they are unintentional.